Sorry i haven't been around a whole lot. I've been away because i don't have internet and only go on at friends houses. So i will be gone for awhile till my father pays the bill, hoping he will soon lol Though i've been working on stories and art galore

So till then

Sorry for my absents guys n gals! im Really Sorry! please forgive me. i just wanted to like make enough drawings so i can scan them ALL and not just one after the other (like i finish a drawing, scan that then go on another drawing) no no no that ain't the way it works with me. so! for my being absent for a few days, months, year. i want you all to leave me a message asking what you want me to draw for you! call it payback for me. lol life here isn't so great (like any life) and again im sorry. im So fricken sorry! right now im listenign to some tunes i put together on playlist.com and yeah. eww! my cat drooled on me! *icky!* OMG! Chris Angel is on!! Holy Jackass Fucker! =O... God Damn That guys H.O.T.!! O.O fucking crap, damnit, sonuvabitch,cunt licking ass fucking, dicksucking bitch! my Cat is in heat AGAIN!! Fuck how long will she be like this? its bee n2 weeks now! and now theres a MALE cat Pissing by our doors!! FUCK!... oh yeah umm.. i got glasses now just so you know.. and im SINGAL!! kool right? i think so, but... it's lonely after you think about it lol... I'M SO ALONE!!!! anyway lol umm so yeah.. i am.. a freak of nature! cause like... i can get guys on the Net but... in reality... Nope! no one here likes me, they think im just another girl. ugh! -_- Not Kool! ok so like i got guy friends but... no BF. WTF?!?! im still a virgin which ROCKS!!! YEAH!!! lol im a weirdo i know and im getting out of the black! (im sorry if that sounded mean guys im Really sorry!) but yeah im getting out of the dark clothes and going into the Light! (Damn Thats Bright! ~.n ) lol so ok umm...yeah. does anyone here have a bf/gf ?? i don't. it's lonely after a while, when you ACTUALLY think about it. but no matter, theres a guy at my school i like; Garrett. and he is awsome! lol but... we never talk. just say "hi" every noe and then, sometimes we wave. but other then that he no talk to me, except for this one time where i asked him how his life was, he said it was shitty tho. but still we TALKED! and it was awsome! lol and now a days i think, with my glasses on, i sometimes see his awsome blue eyes stare my way for a second the back to what he's looking at so... EEP!!!! lol he Could be looking at me! omg,omg,omg!!! but then again... nvm. so yea anyway. leavers me a message down below! and i'll get back at cheah! and if i DON'T get your message( like i logoff before i het to see that i have a message from you guys) then give me a "SMACK!!!" on my MSN or on here and i'll get to it a.s.a.p. ok? later!

as long as i remember your kiss,
i will live longer.

as long as i remeber your touch,
i will surender.

as long as i remember your eyes,
i will always see the sky.

as long as i remeber your sent,
i will always find you.

as long as i remeber your heartbeat,
i will never cry for the loss of my own.

as long as i remember i love you,
i know you love me too!...

I Love You.
<3

...........*sighs*..................*caughs*............*lays down and dies*..................*twitch*.........*blood everywhere*............*wakes up*...................*looks around*....*asks: am i dead?*.......................*reaper comes in*..........*says: yes u are!*.....*dead person says: o good! * ..............*so where do i go?*......*hell!!*...........*o.O*.........*dead person asks:y do i have to go to hell?*...*reaper says:u rapt ur dog*......*dead person says:u saw that! o.O*.....*yes i see everything u do!*...*even when i touch myself?*.....*yes...even that*......*can i touch u?*....*no! now go!*.......*dead person touches self once more b4 leaves*....*reaper says: would u stop that!*....*dead person replys:well i need something to calm me down*...*reaper leads the way*....*dead person says:are we there yet?*..*reaper replys:no*....*are we there yet?*..*no*....*are we there yet?*....*NO NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!*...*o.O*....*are we there yet?*.......*GOD DAMN IT!!!*.....*lol*....*reaper keeps on walking*....*dead person asks:are we there Yet?*.....*reaper replys:no! now if u don't shut up i will kill u!!*......*dead person replys:how can u kill something when its already dead?*......*very easly*....*o.O*....*can u show me? *.....*oh i'll show u alright...* .....*can u show me now?*...*no*.....*can u show me now?*...*no*.....*how bout now?*....*reaper turns around raises its sickle*.....*dead person says: So... u gonna show me now??*......*reaper replys:hell yeah!*.....*Hells doors open*.....*satan says:reaper are u gonna kill one of my new playthings?*...*reaper replys:y no sir...*......*good!*....*dead person says to the devil: i love you! o.O*..........*satan says: oh u'll love me all the more once im through with u*.....* yay!*.....

All was quiet,
All was beautiful.

Nice long walks in the park,
Lovely flowers bloomed around us.

Why did it happen?
What happened?

Who did it?
I want to not believe it's real.

I wish to join you,
I say no.
Why?

"Jamie, it's me. I miss you."
"Angel, I know I miss you too."

Please Jamie let me join you!
After he left I couldn't think of anything else
but to be with him again.

Angel, Please if you can't live for your family's sake
then live you life for me.

"Jamie please let me join you"
"No Angel stay please don't think like that!"

Fate will bring us together agin,
We'll see each other once more

"No Angel don't jump off this cliff"
she wants nothing more then to end her own life,
just to be with me!

"Jamie?"
I stand here on the same cliff where he died,
The wind blows my hair every where.
I can hear him better up here.

If only he knew.
If only she knew.

How much i'm willing to give up.
How much she's willing to leave behind.

Love is stronger.
Love is a bitch.

It's the reason why i want to do this.
It's the only reason why she wants to die.

Jamie....
Angel....

Please....
Please....

Let me be with you again.
Stay there don't move, stay for me.

I'll be ok if i was with you again.
You'll be with me again just not now.

I'm begging you Angel,
You still have a life to live
don't through it away like this.

It's the only way i can be free,
from my broken heart i'll die a thousand times
for you Jamie.

I can't stand this any longer!
Angel Please!
Don't drive me insane!

"Jamie? are you ok?"
"No Angel I am Not ok!"

"Angel just please live your life
and if your heart is still with me...."

"Jamie you know it always will be,
Our hearts are for only each other."

Last chance.
Final decision.

Life or love?
Live or die?

I choose.....
Please god....

Life.
Yes!

"I will always be here for you Angel."
"And i will always be waiting to be with you again Jamie"

"Together..."
"Forever."

"In Life...."
"Or Death."

"Good Bye"
"For Now"